Sometimes I Feel Like...

Sometimes I feel like everything around me is closing in and everything starts to go wrong.  I'm not too sure why either? Most of my friends have told me it is because I'm the care giver out of our social group.  I'm always the one who looks after everyone no matter what. I arrange everything from going out for the night, parties, everything really that friends do. Even when we take vacations I always come prepared. I'll have my little bags for every possible thing that could go wrong. I even adopted the name "Daddy Donovan". That's a good thing I suppose since I developed that nickname at such a young age. I'm guessing because that is the way my mom treated me while I was growing up. But, I'm always late for everything even when I'm the one arranging everything. That really bothers me too, but I guess it comes with the fact of having lazy friends who rely on me for much of what we do. You could only imagine the toll it takes on me every few months or so. That is when I get the feeling and I completely stop talking to everyone for no reason. I also tend to get really impatient and my anxiety seems to be at its highest point. I'm not too sure what to do about it, it bothers me at times. But I was raised to always go that extra step for other people even if they won't do it for you. And that takes a toll on everything I do.